argh.

So I had a really bad back spasm today. It still hurts and i did it at 2 something or other. This happened before..excpet i was in London..trying on pants...slightly awkward.

Even though I haven't been in Sacrameto for a month yet, I have pretty much decided that I don't like it here. I think that once i get my AA and transfer to a CSU I am NOT going to Sac State. I really don't want to spend more time here than need be. I am not saying that Sacramento is a bad place or people that like it here are dumb for doing so. I just don't like it here because I love where I come from. I like seeing natural trees and actual wilderness. So right now I may be looking at Sonoma State. I love that area alot, especially Sebastopol, Monte Rio, and Guerneville. They are all small towns and extremely beautiful.


I found out a few days ago my dad is not going to help me with Culinary school. This sucks because I was hoping for some help financially. So it looks like I am going to be in debt up to my eyeballs. What really stings is that my dad is paying for all of my sister's schooling, and i don't just mean college. He is already paying tuition for her school...catholic elementary school, he is going to pay for he high school....All girls Catholic high school, and they have to pay for all their books, and he will also pay for all her college education. Now i am hoping I am not being selfish but.....does 4=17 years? I don't think so....and it's all because I want to follow my dreams instead of his.