No control

I am so tired of this. I hate feeling like this. By this I mean, resentment and regret. I really regret applying at Cosumnes River. not that it's not a great school, because it is. I don't want to go there because I will be leaving so mmany things behind, and going to a place that can never feel like home. Ever. My family there lacks every kind of emotion, regard of health, and compassion for others. This realizatoin has caosed me to be in a constant state of tears. My dad yelling at me, didn't help matters at all. lst night I couldn't talk to david because he was catching up on some sleep, that plus the empty hole i call my room over there, sent me straight into a melancholy state of mind. All i want is to have some ice cream to help my fever, and my boy to comfort me. I hate this, i hate feeling like I have no control.